They call it a crush for a reason…
Each and every time you see them your heart flutters into your throat and you feel like you’re never going to be able to breath again. Your head is so high in the clouds that at moments you forget about the rest of the world.
But when it’s all said and done with, and your off your high, your so low that you could be crushed at any moment.
It was my freshman year of high school, and my friend Sarah and I shared her senior sister’s locker because it was closer to all the cute senior boys and the front of the school. We got to walk by the “wall” where they would all post up between classes and stare at the girls when we walked by. We wore skirts, flipped our hair and giggled every time we walked by.
He was my mother’s nightmare. A senior, with a car, who played his music too loud, called too late and smoked cigarettes. Not to mention that it was inevitable that at the end of summer he would be running off to college.
I thought that I was going to throw up with nervousness when he talked to me for the first time. I nearly passed out when he asked for my phone number. I jumped ever time the phone rang at my parents house hoping, wishing, and crossing my fingers that it would be him. The first time we hung out after school, I was shaking the entire way to his friends house, partly because the bass in his car was so strong, and partly because I didn’t know what I was going to say. He drove a black Acura Intergra, 2 door and I had his licence plate memorized so that I wouldn’t confuse his car for someone else’s. (I am fully aware that this is crazy.)
We never dated, not really, but I don’t know that I had ever crushed on someone so hard in my life!
He went away to college and it was too much for me. I was getting home from dance class, doing homework and getting ready to go to bed, and he was getting ready to go to a party. He still called and wrote me letters, but at the end of the day I choose to date one of his friends that was still in high school. (Who also ended up breaking my heart.)
He came home for a few years, but his girlfriend kept us from being close. We always stayed in touch…I went to college, he moved to LA. Our relationship shifted into a more brother/ sister relationship.
It’s been around 6 years since I’ve seen him. Over a year since I’ve talked to him…but he slips into my thoughts on occasion and I wonder if he still thinks of me.
Yesterday I opened my AOL email, one that I rarely check…and I got this email.
You ever going to call me? I have been waiting around for Hotmail give me your archived email…I hope you receive this!!!
I guess I don’t have to wonder anymore!
I sent him my number and he called me today. I got excited like I did in high school, but things are so different now.
It’s been 12 years that we’ve been friends! We’ve both grown but I love that we can still chat like no time has passed.
Do you still have a high school crush that haunts your thoughts? What would you say to them if you got the chance?