Category Archives: Reasons I’m still single

Confessions

What do you even begin to open back up to the interwebs when it’s literally been almost months since you’ve let them in? I guess the only fair thing to do is to lay it all on the line. Because I know you won’t judge…

I confess…

  • Last week my reader had almost 1000 unread blog posts…I “marked all as read”.  This doesn’t mean that I don’t love and miss you.
  • I’ve been reading the same book since December…everyone else seems to have loved it, and I just can’t get into it.  Regardless of this, I still have 4 other books sitting on my nightstand uncracked. This is so embarrassing.
  • Some days I want to be Taylor Swift. For serious. She’s so adorable and well dressed and smart and happy.
  • I follow Miley Cyrus on Twitter.
  • Two years ago, I thought I knew what I wanted in life. It’s amazing how life can change in such a small amount of time.
  • I am attracted to all the wrong men.
  • The happiest hour of my day is when I’m dancing.
  • I buy far too many dancing clothes.
  • I own a too many unworn shoes, clothing with tags attached, books unread…but I don’t own a vacuum. The idea of purchasing one makes me a bit ill.
  • I think I missed my calling as a ballroom dancer. I love the drama of it all.
  • I’ve been keeping super busy so that I don’t remember that I’m super lonley.
  • I will try my best to start to write more again, but I can’t make any promises!

Anything you want to tell me?

xo

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Weekend Wisdom…

K: “SJ, he’s adorable! Why don’t you jump on that?”

SJ Thinking: Umm….you have no idea…

SJ: “Among other reasons, he’s non-committal.”

K: “One day soon, he’ll catch the bug…until then, HOVER!”

 

A Girl Can Dream

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always had Dom tastes on an Andre’ budget. I got a few dream emails this week from my girls Brandy and Brookem planning these great vacations and parties that will never happen. I know I won’t be able to safari through Africa with Brandy, or BBQ on a deserted island with Brookem, but the mere planning was enough to brighten my day.Although these are hard economic times, I still dream of grand vacations and expensive shoes.

Here are a few things that I do to keep my dreams alive:

Shop online at Zappos, Nordstroms and Crate and Barrel. Fill my cart with all of the things I’d like to buy. Go to CHECK OUT, look at the total and close the window.

Try on the  shoes of the season  Bob Ellis that I will never purchase, the bag I’ve been lusting at Coach and my friends wedding rings…even if it’s bad luck.

Watch the delicious men roll in the sand play volleyball with sweat dripping down their 6 pack abs and pretend that they’re doing it for my enjoyment. Why did I never think of this before?

Hold some one’s baby until it poops or cries and then give it back!

Plan a dream vacation with my  girls. Or the wedding to the man I  don’t have because ever since I  saw Tiffany’s on the Southern Weddings I can’t stop thinking about it.

What do you dream about doing?

*PS- I promise I am not crazy and superficial, I just like to dream. I feel so blessed to have a job that I like and amazing friends and family.

I want…

to have a good excuse as to why I haven’t posted in forever, but I just don’t have one that’s good enough.

to write about Match Maker Monday, but I’m struggling to write and PG-13 version. Jules is crazy.

to give you a good TMI Thursday, but my mom stumbled across my blog and I can only imagine what she would have to say about it.

to tell you all about how I opened my heart to someone, only to have it crushed again, but I just can’t find the words. It hurts too much and I feel like it would disappoint the blogosphere as much as it’s disappointed me.

to take the time out of my day to read and respond to the 200+ posts in my reader, but I don’t have the time. *I’m reading as much as I can and I love all of you. I’m still around, just hibernating. I’ll be back before you know it.

Thank you all so much for your comments, gchats, texts, bbms and support. They mean more to me than you know.

xxxo

TMI Thursday: What Not to Wear… Down There

For the past month or so, my dear friend Brookem has been letting us in on her dirty little secrets through installments called  TMI Thursday (an idea she found here). I figured since I’ve been a bit spotty on my postings and a little  a lot of a Debbie Downer lately, it’s high time that I take a moment to laugh at myself. Beware, this is not a pretty post. No rainbows or sunshine, but I bet you’ll get a good laugh at my expense.

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It wasn’t until my freshman year of college that I was open enough to talk freely about anything sexual with my friends.  So it only makes sense that no one had told me that a lot of women were grooming themselves to look like a pre-teen again.  And no, I’m not talking about french braids and pig tails…

When I started seeing my college sweetheart, I decided that I needed to go The Full Monty (because if all the other girls shopped at the Limited Too, so should I).   A girl friend of mine told me that she used this special gel that helped with the razor burn and irritation. I tried it and it worked like a dream.

One night I had plans to meet up with my man after dance team practice. He only lived 3 floors above me, so it was quite convenient. I ran home, jumped in the shower and shaved away, not forgetting to apply my wonder gel.  We started making out and things started to go to the next level.

Just as I started to enjoy myself, I looked at the poor boy and his face was green. He quickly shot out of bed and ran to the restroom.

I was puzzled. My mind was racing: could it be food poisoning? the stomach flu? I hope he doesn’t get me sick…I have 2 games and a test next week!

 When he came back, a bit pale in the face, I asked him if he was going to be ok? After chugging a glass of water, he calmly asked, “What is all over you?”.

Then I realized, my special gel

Take my advice, this is a great product to get rid of unwanted razor burn… or unwanted boy toys!

The Writing’s on the Wall

Hello friends…I’m so sorry that I’ve sucked as a blogger/ blogger friend as of late.

To be quite honest, I’ve just been a bit blah. Nothing is killing me, but very little is getting me too excited lately either. I try my best to keep my blog pretty positive. It helps me to try to keep a positive outlook on life. I feel like when I write when I’m down or upset, it makes the situation real.

I could tell you about work. About how the downfall of the economy has put most of my customers on a capital budget freeze. This means there will be no new killer shoes this season year… But that would be admitting that I’m not 100% fulfilled by my current job.

I could tell you about the boy.  About how Sizzle may have summed up my current romantic situation in her post about snow… but then I would be admitting that I’m not sure where things are going. PS- As much as I dislike the cold, I would love just one good snow this winter. It would be super fun.

I could tell you about all of the fabulous books on my nightstand. You know, the ones that have been collecting dust since before Thanksgiving! But I can’t…because that’s how long it’s been since I have finished a book.

I could tell you about all the fun things the Pop Tarts have been doing:Christmas parties, trips to Miami for New Years and loads of other fun things…but I haven’t seen them since August. And that would require me admitting that as much as I love my friends here,  I am seriously longing for a bit of Kentucky in my life.

I could tell you about my training for my next race. But that would require me admitting I haven’t been motivated to run since the half marathon.

Can you see why I haven’t been writing? This is getting embarrassing…

I used to always say that the easiest person to lie to in life is yourself. Perhaps by not writing how I’m feeling, I’m trying to hide the fact that my life isn’t always rainbows and sunshine. Who knows? But I guess you could say that now the writings on the wall, and all I can do is see what I’m going to do to change a few things…

I promise to get back to normal very soon! Thanks for sticking by me.

xxxo

Q&A Part 3: When Life Changes

Lauren asked: What are the 3 most significant things that have happened in the last 5 years?

Lauren, this is such a difficult question because I feel like my life has changed so much over the last 5 years it’s incredible. There have been a lot of other things happen, but these are the big ones!

College graduation:I graduated from University of Kentucky with a BA in Journalism in 2004. The act of graduating is over rated, but the power of having a degree isn’t. Not to mention the sense of accomplishment, that after 4 years of parties, pledging, dancing and working, I managed to get enough school work  done to warrant a degree. I had no intention of doing anything in the broadcasting realm, but it was amazing the doors that opened by just having a degree. My first grown up job out of college was at Enterprise Rent-a-Car. As silly as it sounds, I would not have gotten that job without my degree, and I wouldn’t have gotten the job I had now without ERAC.

The Final Break Up: I know that I’ve talked about this a few times before, but V and I dated on and off for 5 years, starting 2nd semester my freshman year. When we finally quit and he moved out, I finally allowed myself to make decisions for my life for me and only me. I think that a big reason I stayed in KY as long as I did was because I wanted things to work with us. Don’t get me wrong, it sucked and was one of the hardest things I’ve ever been though, but one of the best for the long run.

The Big Move: From the time I graduated college, I wanted to get into imaging sales. My mom is a CT/ Nuclear Medicine technologist and I was totally geeked out by the technology behind it all. I interviewed with my company right out of college and they told me that I was too green. After gaining some sales experience, they decided to give me another go. In April 2007 I accepted my current position selling medical imaging equipment in the Carolinas. I cover all of SC and a big chunk of NC. Taking this job meant I had to move from KY to NC. But before I could get settled, I had to move to Philly for 5 months of training. Eeeek! This move not only got me a kick ass job, but also allowed me to let go of what I had been hanging onto in KY. I’ve got my good days and bad, but now I can say that I’m happier than I’ve ever been.

Brandy asked: What is your biggest regret and biggest accomplishment?

I’ve had to think long and hard on this one Brandy. I try not to really regret things in life, just learn and grow from them. There have been many times that I have opened my mouth without thinking, or hooked up with the wrong boy.

I thought for a minute that I would say that my biggest regret would be holding on to V for so long. But that’s not the case.

I think my biggest regret, is that in our relationship I held myself back. I didn’t spend enough time with my friends because I put him first, I didn’t party hard enough, shake it fast enough or feed my mind with enough of the books that I loved. We always rented “man movies” at Blockbuster or listened to the music he wanted to in the car. I wore the colors that he wanted to see on me and grew my hair long because that was the way he liked it. I lost myself in trying to be the right girl for him. Had I stayed true to myself, my beliefs and the things that I love, I would have been a happier person and things may not have drug out as long as they did.  What doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger and I don’t know that I would appreciate who I am today without being able to see the person that I was.

My biggest accomplishment would be landing the job that I have today. Not only because I love my field, but it gave me a fresh start and the confidence to get back to the person that I lost while I was in my relationship. Because of it, I feel more grounded in who I am. I try things I never thought that I could do without fear, I put more value my relationships with my friends and family and I’m very happy overall.